that's preposterous

Anonymous asked: Biggest regret?

Huh. I don’t even post here anymore. Imagine my surprise when I log into my email and see an email asking me about my biggest regret. I probably would have ignored it if it wasn’t so interesting. What IS my biggest regret?

Sorry, but I have to give a non-answer. I don’t have one. Who knows what their biggest regret is? I’ve done a lot of stupid things in my life. Some I look back on wince when I think about them. Like (according to my teacher) orchestrating a fight. Like ignoring things instead of confronting them. There are things I’ve tolerated for too long. Like screwing up my grades last year and this year. Like a million other things that are too personal (read:embarrassing) to share on here. Especially with a stranger who I might not even know.

We can’t live perfect lives. I feel perfectly logical about things I do now, but it won’t be so 10 years from now. I’ll look back and wonder why I did what I did when it’s so obviously (to my future me) stupid. All of our actions and their consequences shape us in ways we can’t comprehend just yet. When I’m dying, I’ll know what I regretted the most. Although I very much doubt I’d have time to come back and answer the question again. And there’s also the thing with the bad memory that comes with old age, aha.